Incomplete yet so close

today, my girls team played against chandler gilbert. we scored 2 goals in the first 12 minutes and were close for a third. however, right before half, they put one in. 2-1 at half. after the first 8 minutes, we came out and started playing.. and put a third one in. 3-1... we kept at them but slowly the ball kept coming down to our end. they got a pk... our goalie blocked it.. it seemed as though it was meant to be.. in the last 15 minutes... they finally broke us down and put one in.. 3-2.. after pushing up and with about 5 minutes left they got a corner and put it front post on a dummy.. they knocked it in.. 3-3.. we end up losing on a long ball that a girl puts far post upper V... lose 4-3

the thing that is hard to swallow.. we were up 3-1.. couldnt find a way to hold on to the lead even with us playing well.. it felt like a playoff game.. it was so much fun.. it was what you play for.. that type of atmosphere where you live for.. it was unfortunate because we had it in our hand.. we just couldnt hold on and we let it slip.. we need to learn how to hold on and fight/push beyond what they think they can.. the season is intense and seems long while it happens.. however, in all reality it is only about 2 months long.. we just didnt have the ability to be mentally strong enough to last the season to be strong enough at the point it mattered the most.. it is a learning curve for me as well as the team.. for the team, we must learn to find ways to win games.. to be strong and together for the length of the season.. for me, i need to find a way to keep the girls in it and driven for longer in the season..

overall it has been a success yet because something bigger was hanging out there waiting to be snatched, i feel so incomplete and yet so close...

IF

If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you; If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you, But make allowance for their doubting too: If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise; If you can dream---and not make dreams your master; If you can think---and not make thoughts your aim, If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same:. If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools; If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings, And never breathe a word about your loss: If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!" If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with Kings---nor lose the common touch, If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you, If all men count with you, but none too much: If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run, Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And---which is more---you'll be a Man, my son! Rudyard Kipling

The Truth

I think it is crazy how you can go through something and it seem so long yet in reality, it is a very short period of time. You can truly find out someones character... Who they really are, when things go wrong or bad. There are very few times I look back on and say that I wish I would have done things differently. I don't have very many regrets. However, as I look back on my second season, there are many things I can say that I am proud of such as a better season than last year, a 15-3 record, as well as getting to host a semi-final game in the conference tournament. However there is only one point that I wish I could take back. It is amazing how sometimes wins and losses get to me and I only remember the losses. I lost it. As I look back on everything, that is the only point that I would have changed and done things differently. Sometimes, as a coach, it is very difficult for me to remember that it isn't the game of soccer that I love the most, it's the people involved. They are what make it and I epically failed on that particular day. I keep reading about John Wooden and how he demanded so much... excellence... perfection... from his players that they will remember him for the rest of their lives. That is the legacy that I want to leave; not one of someone who gets caught up in winning and losing. I need to keep remembering that if I teach the right values that wins will come because of the character.. however.. I also must be willing to live by it.. 

We only truly find ourselves when we face the Truth.

Funny

Idk

Sometimes life gets way crazy.

4 majors is really tough. 

I cannot be perfect all the time. 

I do what I can. 

I give it my best always.

Yet, I stretch myself so thin.

Why all the demands?

What are the expectations?

How can it be so hard?