Confession to make

Today, as I woke up late to even get to church late, I came to the realization that something needs to change. I am not being challenged. I am not going anywhere. I am not being pushed. I am simply... There. I don't want to say a waste but sometimes I feel like it. I know that I am capable of whatever I want to do. The problem is I am picky and sometimes I do not get the breaks I am looking for (i.e. my professional soccer career). However, as many times as I fall away, I know that the Homie G has my back. He always reels back in and tries to set me on the right course. I was talking to my roommate tonight about where we are in life. He voiced how I had been feeling in the fact that I am comfortable yet very discontent. John Piper states that "God is most Glorified when we are most Satisfied in Him." I think that has been God's challenge to me. He will bring something my way that will really bring new and exciting challenges when I stop being so restless and just sit and rest in His peace. I think it might be one of those topsy turvy upside down things that God does where it is about the opposite. Be still and know that He is God is alot easier said than done sometimes. If I can be patient and faithful in the little things, I know He will open new doors or even possibly a window or even better a bungee cord...

Looking up or down depending...

Today was interesting. There is a massive tournament going on in AZ this weekend. The Food City Tournament. Friday night, we tied 1-1 and should have won. The other team, which was full of Juco kids, tied the game with about 2 minutes left in the game and we were not able to regain the lead. Frustrating... I wake up the next day and get the time wrong and show up 2 minutes before half time. We had 10 men on the field and went into half tied at 0. We ended up winning 3-0 while ending the game with 10 men. Fantastic. I had to coach during the next game. My 94s lost 1-0 while kicking the crap out of the team we were playing. Officially, they are going into high school so I don't have to do any training for like 3 months now. We get to play soccer tennis for the next couple of weeks so that will be fun! My mens team ended up losing 3-1 while getting screwed by the ref... we ended up not going through and thus we are back to frustrating... However, it is coming into snowboard season! Exciting! and yet, it is in november and it was 95 degrees today! wtf...

Keepin it close

Why are people afraid? What is it about fear that people do not like? Is it Change? The going away from the status quo... An inability to change with the times or adapt to it? Is it Control? The fear of not being able to handle your life and control every little thing in it? Could it be not having enough control or could it be not having any control that makes people afraid? Physical and emotional pain could be a reason for people being afraid. An inability to let things go. Spiders, snakes, and bats are also things that make people afraid. There are so many things in life that can make you afraid. My question is, at the end of the day... it is going to happen anyways... isn't it better in life to experience all you can experience.. the good and the bad.. the ups and downs.. the loves and the fears...

Psalms 56:11

The people around you, your community, your support group, are what help keep your way. Good company corrupts bad morals. In this life, it is too hard to do it on your own. There are not very many cowboys out there anymore. They are what help with fear. They are what help get you through the tough times. They are what you remember at the end of the day. They help keep you on track and focused. They are what help you keep on keeping on.